I saw you

I saw you today and my heart nearly lept out of my chest. I saw you and my hands started to shake and I wanted to crawl under the nearest rock. I am not sure you have even the slightest idea of what you do to me. I saw you and you saw me.

I had no idea my day would take a sharp u-turn. The plan was to go and enjoy a day in Salt Lake with my friend Carla, who is visiting from Chile. We were going to the temple, to do some shopping and to the general Relief Society meeting. The irony? I forgot his best friend was getting married this weekend. On top of that I did not know it would be in SLC...

As I left the parking garage, I saw it. The truck and the quad tucked neatly in the back. I thought to myself, "How strange." Then I noticed the give-aways and it suddenly made sense.

I breathed and told the butterflies in my stomach to go away. The likelihood I would see him in the middle of hundreds of people was slim... Right? WRONG! Carla wants to take some photos in front of the temple with Faith (one of my mission companions) before she leaves. We are walking to the front of the temple and who do I see dead on? I must have been like a deer 15 yards out looking at a bow hunter... He was standing there looking fashionable in his suit and sunglasses. My stomach dropped to the floor. I could not believe it!

To try and be non-chalant and get myself to stop shaking, I tried to go about things as if nothing were wrong. We took our pictures and had a good laugh. As I put my stuff away I looked at him, and he looked at me. It was a moment frozen in time. I could not smile, I could not do anything.

He broke my heart, pero Carla me dice que todavia lo quiero... Y todavia estoy pensando en el.