"When I do good, I feel good. When I do bad, I feel bad."
-Abraham Lincoln
"If only it were that black and white. Sometimes doing the right thing makes you feel anything but good. It can be scary, uncomfortable. Because even when you make the right choices, the bad things can still happen. As much as we want them, there are no guarantees. All we can do is have faith, that if we act with our heart, the things we do will one day make us feel right. Even if sometimes the thing we do feels just a little wrong."
If only...
Friday, September 28, 2007
A little Grey's inspiration
"Nothing remains the same for long. Change. We don't like it, we fear it. But we can't stop it from coming. We either adapt to change or we get left behind. It hurts to grow. Anyone who tells you it doesn't is lying..."
Adapt or stay home by yourself. It is simple. Put some new shoes on and move forward. There are times when we need to let go of things that hold us back.
Today I sat and stared at my computer and fought off the tears. "I'm tired of being alone," I said to myself. I was on a real pitty-pot. "I just want to share my life with someone who looks at me 'that way' and sees me for who I really am."
Then tonight I went out with some friends to a haunted house. There were two boys there and one of them was pretty cute, I'm not going to lie to you. He not only thought I was younger, but I caught him looking at me a few times. It was nice to have someone look at me like that. I don't actually remember the last time I saw a guy look at me like that or show interest to have a conversation with me.
I was starting to think that there were things I needed to change about myself, and there are some (I work too much for example). But there are also guys out there who like me for who I am, how I am. Because the one person in the world I wanted to have see me for how beautiful I really am doesn't, doesn't mean I am any less.
Change is good and it hurts like a mother sometimes, but it's ok. If we were never pulled from our circle of comfort, we would never become the people God needs us to be. How that boy does or doesn't see me doesn't matter and that is something I have had to change. But how God sees me is everything, and as I learn to put my focus there I will change to be a better person than any human could have ever made me.
"But here's the truth: Sometimes, the more things change, the more they stay the same. And sometimes, oh sometimes, change is good. Sometimes change is everything."
Adapt or stay home by yourself. It is simple. Put some new shoes on and move forward. There are times when we need to let go of things that hold us back.
Today I sat and stared at my computer and fought off the tears. "I'm tired of being alone," I said to myself. I was on a real pitty-pot. "I just want to share my life with someone who looks at me 'that way' and sees me for who I really am."
Then tonight I went out with some friends to a haunted house. There were two boys there and one of them was pretty cute, I'm not going to lie to you. He not only thought I was younger, but I caught him looking at me a few times. It was nice to have someone look at me like that. I don't actually remember the last time I saw a guy look at me like that or show interest to have a conversation with me.
I was starting to think that there were things I needed to change about myself, and there are some (I work too much for example). But there are also guys out there who like me for who I am, how I am. Because the one person in the world I wanted to have see me for how beautiful I really am doesn't, doesn't mean I am any less.
Change is good and it hurts like a mother sometimes, but it's ok. If we were never pulled from our circle of comfort, we would never become the people God needs us to be. How that boy does or doesn't see me doesn't matter and that is something I have had to change. But how God sees me is everything, and as I learn to put my focus there I will change to be a better person than any human could have ever made me.
"But here's the truth: Sometimes, the more things change, the more they stay the same. And sometimes, oh sometimes, change is good. Sometimes change is everything."
Thursday, September 27, 2007
A life apart
Here in about 1 week there will be some major changes in my life. I will be a home owner and out on my own. It's exciting and a little nervous at the same time.
While I have this exciting change in my life, I feel like there is a void. I want someone to share it with and some of the other people I most want to share it with don't seem too interested.
Being closer to work and being less involved in extras and church (for the moment) will give me time to do some things I have neglected. Maybe there I will fill the void I am feeling.
Leaving something I have known for 2.5 years will also be a new adventure. I think some people thought I would stay for a while, and maybe I did too. But in seeking to fill the void, I am moving. I need some new scenery and challenges.
I feel that sometimes my convictions have separated me and even driven apart some of the friendships I had (not that I am a perfect Saint by any means). I am not sure that I will ever fully fit it in in this life. And that's OK because my journey will present me with new opportunities.
Perhaps I will be in search for a while. Perhaps it will take me closer (if even by steps) to the one thing that can fill that void.
While I have this exciting change in my life, I feel like there is a void. I want someone to share it with and some of the other people I most want to share it with don't seem too interested.
Being closer to work and being less involved in extras and church (for the moment) will give me time to do some things I have neglected. Maybe there I will fill the void I am feeling.
Leaving something I have known for 2.5 years will also be a new adventure. I think some people thought I would stay for a while, and maybe I did too. But in seeking to fill the void, I am moving. I need some new scenery and challenges.
I feel that sometimes my convictions have separated me and even driven apart some of the friendships I had (not that I am a perfect Saint by any means). I am not sure that I will ever fully fit it in in this life. And that's OK because my journey will present me with new opportunities.
Perhaps I will be in search for a while. Perhaps it will take me closer (if even by steps) to the one thing that can fill that void.
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Dreams
Last night i dreamed a dream...
I was in a room and a little frantic. Something had happened with a friend and I shouted at her. I said everything that I was feeling.
The one thing that frustrated me most was the wall between us. It was full of books and stuff (almost like experiences). I was trying to look through it and see her, but the wall separated us. Looking back on it, it almost seems like knowledge and maturity that separated us.
At one point I was jumping and saw a little bit of light. However, there was no success. I didn't even have any response from her.
It is interesting how our dreams sometimes mirror the realities we are facing, or those things we are feeling inside. There is a situation in my life where that is what I am feeling toward the person who was in my dream.
Our dreams can be very educating and if we pay attention to the Spirit, we will know when we are being taught.
I was in a room and a little frantic. Something had happened with a friend and I shouted at her. I said everything that I was feeling.
The one thing that frustrated me most was the wall between us. It was full of books and stuff (almost like experiences). I was trying to look through it and see her, but the wall separated us. Looking back on it, it almost seems like knowledge and maturity that separated us.
At one point I was jumping and saw a little bit of light. However, there was no success. I didn't even have any response from her.
It is interesting how our dreams sometimes mirror the realities we are facing, or those things we are feeling inside. There is a situation in my life where that is what I am feeling toward the person who was in my dream.
Our dreams can be very educating and if we pay attention to the Spirit, we will know when we are being taught.
Monday, September 10, 2007
Crazy curves
Life has an interesting way of teaching us lessons. Sometimes it is through an experience; sometimes it is through someone else; and if we are in tune, our Heavenly Father has many things to teach us.
Life changes so fast, sometimes faster than we can comprehend. One day we are with those people who make a difference in our lives and then next they are gone. Do we really value the time we spend with those around us?
Life is too short for petty arguments and to not treat those around us with kindness. In church yesterday a sister shared some interesting numbers. We know through modern revelation that 1,000 years is 1 day in God's time. That means we live 41.666 years to God's 1 hour; .694 years to God's 1 minute; .012 years to God's 1 second.
In the eternal scheme of things, our time here is so short. Are you taking advantage of every day?
Life changes so fast, sometimes faster than we can comprehend. One day we are with those people who make a difference in our lives and then next they are gone. Do we really value the time we spend with those around us?
Life is too short for petty arguments and to not treat those around us with kindness. In church yesterday a sister shared some interesting numbers. We know through modern revelation that 1,000 years is 1 day in God's time. That means we live 41.666 years to God's 1 hour; .694 years to God's 1 minute; .012 years to God's 1 second.
In the eternal scheme of things, our time here is so short. Are you taking advantage of every day?
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