My body is having an allergic reaction to something and I can't figure out what it would be... Mis deditos are red and don't bend, my forearm is covered in red and my face and neck have patches on them...
ARGH!!!
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Stars
"Ideals are like the stars. You will not reach them by touching them with your hands. You will reach them by using them as your guide."
-Pres. Thomas S. Monson
I love looking at the stars, learning about the constellations and being in places were I can see them all. Every opportunity I have to sleep under the stars, I do.
The very idea that God put the stars in constellations amazes me. Then to think He would put the idea into someone's head that the set of stars over there looks like a dragon, and another set of stars looks like Orion, and yet another set looks like a scorpion. Amazing!
For hundreds of years we have been using these stars as guides, astrological signs and a host of other things. Just as those shinning orbs have become something we look up to, our dreams and ideals are also something we should look up to and use as our guide in life.
Our dreams are our own personal bright spots, something that give us hope. Most often it is those dreams that get us to pick ourselves up and dust off. It is those dreams that push us into the darkness and shine a light as we step one foot in front of the other.
"All that is not eternal is too short. All that is not infinite is too small."
-Pres. James E. Faust
-Pres. Thomas S. Monson
I love looking at the stars, learning about the constellations and being in places were I can see them all. Every opportunity I have to sleep under the stars, I do.
The very idea that God put the stars in constellations amazes me. Then to think He would put the idea into someone's head that the set of stars over there looks like a dragon, and another set of stars looks like Orion, and yet another set looks like a scorpion. Amazing!
For hundreds of years we have been using these stars as guides, astrological signs and a host of other things. Just as those shinning orbs have become something we look up to, our dreams and ideals are also something we should look up to and use as our guide in life.
Our dreams are our own personal bright spots, something that give us hope. Most often it is those dreams that get us to pick ourselves up and dust off. It is those dreams that push us into the darkness and shine a light as we step one foot in front of the other.
"All that is not eternal is too short. All that is not infinite is too small."
-Pres. James E. Faust
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Honesty
"We must not let our passions destroy our dreams."
-King Arthur
For those who know the story, the statement has some irony to it. Later on the king would betray the very person who was the most loyal to him. He told himself that know one would ever know, no one would ever find out. But, as with many secrets, someone always knows and someone always finds out.
Honesty is such a strange creature. It makes everything so easy, if we would just exercise it. When we chose not to be honest, it opens the door for betrayal. Betrayal that hurts. Betrayal that should never exist. Betrayal that can destroy something so beautiful.
How honest are we with ourselves? How honest are we with the ones we love? Maybe we are content with what we don't know.
I work hard to be honest with those around me and I would hope that they do the same in return. More importantly, it is imperative to be honest with yourself.
-King Arthur
For those who know the story, the statement has some irony to it. Later on the king would betray the very person who was the most loyal to him. He told himself that know one would ever know, no one would ever find out. But, as with many secrets, someone always knows and someone always finds out.
Honesty is such a strange creature. It makes everything so easy, if we would just exercise it. When we chose not to be honest, it opens the door for betrayal. Betrayal that hurts. Betrayal that should never exist. Betrayal that can destroy something so beautiful.
How honest are we with ourselves? How honest are we with the ones we love? Maybe we are content with what we don't know.
I work hard to be honest with those around me and I would hope that they do the same in return. More importantly, it is imperative to be honest with yourself.
Life
Life is interesting... There are those curve balls that find the inside, and then some, and smack you right in the kidney. Then there are those beautiful meat balls that come right down the center and have homerun written all over it.
A few weeks ago I did not know what I was going to do. I got smacked in the kidney and didn't want to get up. Coach came out from the dugout and made me get up. I stood at the plate a little unsure, but I had to face it because I couldn't back down.
A few pitches later I got the meat ball. Things are going better and even better than I thought it would. The Lord has blessed me significantly and then some. It is a true testament to obedience and living your life in accordance with the laws of God.
Today I had the opportunity to read Lectures on Faith. Wow! What amazing insights.
I really liked Lecture Six. It talks about sacrifice and how we must have a sure knowledge before we are ready to sacrifice in our hearts. We must also be in the path of the Lord.
"Such was, and always will be, the situation of the saints of God, that unless they have an actual knowledge that the course they are pursuing is according to the will of God, they will grow weary in their minds, and faint."
"A religion that does not require the sacrifice of all things never has the power sufficient to produce the faith necessary unto life and salvation."
What a debt of gratitude we owe to Joseph Smith who had faith enough to ask God the Father which of all the churches were true; then to follow his answer, amid persecution, and restore the fullness of the gospel of Jesus Christ to the earth.
A few weeks ago I did not know what I was going to do. I got smacked in the kidney and didn't want to get up. Coach came out from the dugout and made me get up. I stood at the plate a little unsure, but I had to face it because I couldn't back down.
A few pitches later I got the meat ball. Things are going better and even better than I thought it would. The Lord has blessed me significantly and then some. It is a true testament to obedience and living your life in accordance with the laws of God.
Today I had the opportunity to read Lectures on Faith. Wow! What amazing insights.
I really liked Lecture Six. It talks about sacrifice and how we must have a sure knowledge before we are ready to sacrifice in our hearts. We must also be in the path of the Lord.
"Such was, and always will be, the situation of the saints of God, that unless they have an actual knowledge that the course they are pursuing is according to the will of God, they will grow weary in their minds, and faint."
"A religion that does not require the sacrifice of all things never has the power sufficient to produce the faith necessary unto life and salvation."
What a debt of gratitude we owe to Joseph Smith who had faith enough to ask God the Father which of all the churches were true; then to follow his answer, amid persecution, and restore the fullness of the gospel of Jesus Christ to the earth.
Saturday, November 25, 2006
Feel the Silence
You lie awake at night
With blue eyes that never cry
All you remember now
Is what you feel
The truth remains
In midnight conversations
I asked for this moment
But you turned away
Sad like a lonely child
Broken the day you're born
I held the light to you
But I was so vain
And you remain
A promise unfulfilled
I ask you for more
But you push me away
And if we feel the silence
Holding this all inside
Everything means more now than
Words could explain
And if we feel the silence
Holding this all inside us
Looking for something more to say
I don't know where I'm going
Only know where I been
But you move through my soul like a hurricane wind
We've been so lost for so long
I don't know how to get back again
And we're drowning in the water
That flows under this bridge
When you're fighting the current
You forget how to live
And I wanted to reach you but I don't know where to begin
And you remain
A promise unfulfilled until today
And if we feel the silence
Holding this all inside
Everything means more now than
Words could explain
And if we feel the silence
Leaving this all behind us
When it's gone what will you say
How do we hold on
How do we hold on
How do we hold on
How do we hold on
How do we hold on
You lie awake at night
With blue eyes that never cry
With blue eyes that never cry
All you remember now
Is what you feel
The truth remains
In midnight conversations
I asked for this moment
But you turned away
Sad like a lonely child
Broken the day you're born
I held the light to you
But I was so vain
And you remain
A promise unfulfilled
I ask you for more
But you push me away
And if we feel the silence
Holding this all inside
Everything means more now than
Words could explain
And if we feel the silence
Holding this all inside us
Looking for something more to say
I don't know where I'm going
Only know where I been
But you move through my soul like a hurricane wind
We've been so lost for so long
I don't know how to get back again
And we're drowning in the water
That flows under this bridge
When you're fighting the current
You forget how to live
And I wanted to reach you but I don't know where to begin
And you remain
A promise unfulfilled until today
And if we feel the silence
Holding this all inside
Everything means more now than
Words could explain
And if we feel the silence
Leaving this all behind us
When it's gone what will you say
How do we hold on
How do we hold on
How do we hold on
How do we hold on
How do we hold on
You lie awake at night
With blue eyes that never cry
Random thoughts
Today is one of my Saturday's to work and I am cleaning things out. In the middle of things I am finding quotes and thoughts I have written down. So, today I thought I would share them with you.
"I heard once that love was a friendship on fire."
I want to marry my best friend. Someone I can talk to and who knows me and I know him. Friendship also implies loyalty and unconditional love.
"Life is pain your highness. Anyone who tells you different is trying to sell you something."
-The Princess Bride
How can I know what I think until I know what I have written?
What do we live for if we don't make life easier for each other?
"My plea is that we stop seeking out the storms and enjoy more the sunshine."
-President Gordon B. Hinckley
If we would all obey the principles, we wouldn't need rules.
"I believe that the busy person... who has his worries and troubles, can solve his problems better and more quickly in the house of the Lord than anywhere else. If he will [do] the temple work for himself and for his dead, he will confer a mighty blessing upon those who have gone before, and... a blessing will come to him, for at the most unexpected moments, in or out of the temple will come to him, as a revelation, the solution of the problems that vex his life. That is the gift that comes to those who enter the temple properly."
- Elder John A. Widstoe
Trials give us the opportunity to be molded into something great.
"No pain that we suffer, no trial we endure is ever waisted."
-Orson F. Whitney
"Even if you exercise your strongest faith, God will not answer in the time you want."
-Elder Richard G. Scott
We must set commandments for ourselves to help us avoid temptations and keep the commandments the Lord has given us.
"That which we persist in doing becomes easier to do."
-Pres. Heber J. Grant
Don't fear the giants.
There are going to be off days. Keep working at it.
Life is simple. We tend to complicate it.
Don't falter. Don't ever lose hope
"Agency allows us to exercise on the inside, outside Christ-like behavior."
-Elder Robert. D. Hales
"Christ is the creator, the healer. What He has made, he can fix."
-Elder Boyd K. Packer
How can I know what I think until I know what I have written?
What do we live for if we don't make life easier for each other?
"I heard once that love was a friendship on fire."
I want to marry my best friend. Someone I can talk to and who knows me and I know him. Friendship also implies loyalty and unconditional love.
"Life is pain your highness. Anyone who tells you different is trying to sell you something."
-The Princess Bride
How can I know what I think until I know what I have written?
What do we live for if we don't make life easier for each other?
"My plea is that we stop seeking out the storms and enjoy more the sunshine."
-President Gordon B. Hinckley
If we would all obey the principles, we wouldn't need rules.
"I believe that the busy person... who has his worries and troubles, can solve his problems better and more quickly in the house of the Lord than anywhere else. If he will [do] the temple work for himself and for his dead, he will confer a mighty blessing upon those who have gone before, and... a blessing will come to him, for at the most unexpected moments, in or out of the temple will come to him, as a revelation, the solution of the problems that vex his life. That is the gift that comes to those who enter the temple properly."
- Elder John A. Widstoe
Trials give us the opportunity to be molded into something great.
"No pain that we suffer, no trial we endure is ever waisted."
-Orson F. Whitney
"Even if you exercise your strongest faith, God will not answer in the time you want."
-Elder Richard G. Scott
We must set commandments for ourselves to help us avoid temptations and keep the commandments the Lord has given us.
"That which we persist in doing becomes easier to do."
-Pres. Heber J. Grant
Don't fear the giants.
There are going to be off days. Keep working at it.
Life is simple. We tend to complicate it.
Don't falter. Don't ever lose hope
"Agency allows us to exercise on the inside, outside Christ-like behavior."
-Elder Robert. D. Hales
"Christ is the creator, the healer. What He has made, he can fix."
-Elder Boyd K. Packer
How can I know what I think until I know what I have written?
What do we live for if we don't make life easier for each other?
Butterflies
I love butterflies. They are interesting insects. It amazes me to think that a leaf-munching creepy crawly thing could turn into a beautiful flying creature of various colors.
Tonight I was thinking about these insects (it almost seems weird to call it a bug). There is much parallelism that can be taken from them.
There are people that come into our lives and they may not be the best looking prospects. They are the, perhaps, undesirable creatures that go along and munch everything in their path. The beauty is that they can be so much more.
We bring these people into our lives and we wrap them into a cocoon. As they are wrapped in this orb, they begin to change. It could be changes in their lives, their attitudes, whatever. We watch a special metamorphis from the outside. It is gorgeous.
Then one day, the person realizes who they have become and begins to break free from the cocoon. In our own selfish way, we want the new creature to stay. However, holding on could damage its wings and prevent it from ever flying.
As it crawls out, beautiful colored wings unfold before our eyes and the creature begins to unsteadily walk and try to fly. Suddenly, as if it is second nature, it flies away. This is the hard part because you want the butterfly to know you want it to stay. You want it to know that you care for it and are willing to do whatever it takes. At the same time, you want the butterfly to know you love it enough to let it go even though you are crying on the inside because you know what its adventures will be.
There are times in our lives when a certain degree of selfishness has its place. Then there are other times when we have to let those butterflies in our lives go.
It has to go out into the "new" world and explore. It must find out who it is. It must figure out what it wants. And perhaps the very thing it seeks it right in front of it, but it doesn't know that yet. The only way we will know if what it seeks is us, is if it comes back.
We cannot confine the butterfly to its cocoon. We cannot protect it forever. We cannot inhibit it from finding out what it wants.
What we can do is trust that it will make the right decisions and support it along the way. It may not come back and that is OK. We have to want happiness for the new creature that has formed. We have to love it enough to let go and be the friend who stands by and says everything is OK, even though it isn't.
At the same time, the creature must realize that if takes too long, we may not be there when it comes back. There may be other butterflies that catch our attention. Decisions have their consequences and we will have to live with what we decide.
Sometimes it is OK to be selfish, but not if you are keeping the very thing you love from discovering itself.
Tonight I was thinking about these insects (it almost seems weird to call it a bug). There is much parallelism that can be taken from them.
There are people that come into our lives and they may not be the best looking prospects. They are the, perhaps, undesirable creatures that go along and munch everything in their path. The beauty is that they can be so much more.
We bring these people into our lives and we wrap them into a cocoon. As they are wrapped in this orb, they begin to change. It could be changes in their lives, their attitudes, whatever. We watch a special metamorphis from the outside. It is gorgeous.
Then one day, the person realizes who they have become and begins to break free from the cocoon. In our own selfish way, we want the new creature to stay. However, holding on could damage its wings and prevent it from ever flying.
As it crawls out, beautiful colored wings unfold before our eyes and the creature begins to unsteadily walk and try to fly. Suddenly, as if it is second nature, it flies away. This is the hard part because you want the butterfly to know you want it to stay. You want it to know that you care for it and are willing to do whatever it takes. At the same time, you want the butterfly to know you love it enough to let it go even though you are crying on the inside because you know what its adventures will be.
There are times in our lives when a certain degree of selfishness has its place. Then there are other times when we have to let those butterflies in our lives go.
It has to go out into the "new" world and explore. It must find out who it is. It must figure out what it wants. And perhaps the very thing it seeks it right in front of it, but it doesn't know that yet. The only way we will know if what it seeks is us, is if it comes back.
We cannot confine the butterfly to its cocoon. We cannot protect it forever. We cannot inhibit it from finding out what it wants.
What we can do is trust that it will make the right decisions and support it along the way. It may not come back and that is OK. We have to want happiness for the new creature that has formed. We have to love it enough to let go and be the friend who stands by and says everything is OK, even though it isn't.
At the same time, the creature must realize that if takes too long, we may not be there when it comes back. There may be other butterflies that catch our attention. Decisions have their consequences and we will have to live with what we decide.
Sometimes it is OK to be selfish, but not if you are keeping the very thing you love from discovering itself.
Friday, November 24, 2006
Secrets
"As doctors we know everybody's secrets, their medical histories, sexual histories, confidential information that is as essential to a surgeon as a ten blade and every bit as dangerous. We keep secrets. We have to. But not all secrets can be kept..."
-Christina
Secrets are dangerous. They can eat us alive from the inside out. They can destroy families, relationships and lifetime friendships. They are not healthy.
Today I was talking with my dad about liquid oxygen and the bottles it is contained in. What an interesting creature.
On the inside of the cylinder there is a little generator thing that circulates the liquid O2. When the cylinder is not used, people can lose 1-2 percent a day. Because of this little generator thing, there must be a let-off valve so pressure doesn't build up too high.
There was a guy once who decided he didn't want to lose his liquid O2, so he took out the let-off valve. It was replaced with a steel something-or-other. He had not used the cylinder for a while and was cruising down the highway in his service truck (the cylinder was in the bed). Suddenly, there was a loud explosion, he started to swerve all over the road and crashed his truck.
The bottom of the cylinder rotted out and the built up pressure didn't help the situation. The guys truck broke in half and they couldn't find the cylinder.
Keep in mind, liquid O2 is the same stuff they put into the solid rocket boosters for space shuttles (500,000 gal-or-so of it). About three months later, two miles away a wheat farmer was harvesting and found the bottle in his field... woah!
Our secrets can produce the same results in our lives. If we do not have a let-off valve, the pressure will build and one day we are going to explode and it may not be pretty.
"In some ways, betrayal is inevitable. When our bodies betray us, surgery is often the key to recovery. When we betray each other, when we betray each other, the path to recovery is less clear...
"We do whatever it takes to rebuild the trust that was lost...
"And then there are some wounds, some betrayals that are so deep, so profound that there's no way to repair what was lost. And when that happens, there's nothing left to do but wait..."
-Christina
Secrets are dangerous. They can eat us alive from the inside out. They can destroy families, relationships and lifetime friendships. They are not healthy.
Today I was talking with my dad about liquid oxygen and the bottles it is contained in. What an interesting creature.
On the inside of the cylinder there is a little generator thing that circulates the liquid O2. When the cylinder is not used, people can lose 1-2 percent a day. Because of this little generator thing, there must be a let-off valve so pressure doesn't build up too high.
There was a guy once who decided he didn't want to lose his liquid O2, so he took out the let-off valve. It was replaced with a steel something-or-other. He had not used the cylinder for a while and was cruising down the highway in his service truck (the cylinder was in the bed). Suddenly, there was a loud explosion, he started to swerve all over the road and crashed his truck.
The bottom of the cylinder rotted out and the built up pressure didn't help the situation. The guys truck broke in half and they couldn't find the cylinder.
Keep in mind, liquid O2 is the same stuff they put into the solid rocket boosters for space shuttles (500,000 gal-or-so of it). About three months later, two miles away a wheat farmer was harvesting and found the bottle in his field... woah!
Our secrets can produce the same results in our lives. If we do not have a let-off valve, the pressure will build and one day we are going to explode and it may not be pretty.
"In some ways, betrayal is inevitable. When our bodies betray us, surgery is often the key to recovery. When we betray each other, when we betray each other, the path to recovery is less clear...
"We do whatever it takes to rebuild the trust that was lost...
"And then there are some wounds, some betrayals that are so deep, so profound that there's no way to repair what was lost. And when that happens, there's nothing left to do but wait..."
Discernment
dis‧cern‧ment [di-surn-muh
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| 1. | the faculty of discerning; discrimination; acuteness of judgment and understanding. |
| 2. | the act or an instance of discerning. |
The gift of discernment is a strange thing. In the scriptures it is often talked about in the form of good vs. evil. In a few instances, it is talked about in the manner of making decisions or in knowing something.
There are times "you just know" something is coming or someone is going to say something. You do not know how you know, but you do.
The other day a special friend of mine messaged me and I already knew what he wanted. When he called later I prayed that the words I didn't want to hear would not come out of his mouth. I wanted to cry.
My point in sharing this is because there are times when we are living our lives right and the Lord will share things with us. He trusts us enough to give us that "sneak peek." He knows it will be for our benefit. We may not want it, but we are shortsighted and don't know that it may be for the better in the end.
The Lord can only share gifts with us when we are prepared to use those gifts for good. Added to that, we are not always given all the gifts we want.
"For all have not every gift given unto them; for there are many gifts, and to every man is given a gift by the Spirit of God.
"To some is given one, and to some is given another, that all may be profited thereby" (D&C 46:11-12).
While we may be struggling in our temporal lives, we must seek spiritual refuge in the gifts the Lord wants to give us. God sees our potential and we must learn to see our own potential.
What would have happened had the Lord not seen the potential in Saul of Tarsus? He was a persecutor of the Christians and took part in the martyrdom of Stephen. On the road to do some more persecution he saw a vision of the Lord, became Paul, and was later baptized, served missions and was imprisoned for his beliefs. He became, in the Lord's words, a "fisher of men" (Matt. 4:19).
What would have happened had the Lord not seen the potential of Saul the persecutor? Would he have ever realized his own potential had the Lord given up on him? Had he given up on himself?
Our talents exist to buoy us up in times of distress; to give us the strength to ride out the storm. The Lord will never abandon you. He sees who you can become and you must open your eyes and see that too.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Blind spots
"Many people don't know that the human eye has a blind spot in its field of vision. There's a part of the world that we are literally blind to.
"The problem is that sometimes our blind spots shield us from the things that really shouldn't be ignored.
"Sometimes our blind spots keep us bright and shiny."
Are there times we chose not to acknowledge those blind spots? That we would rather live in our ignorance than face up to what may be happening?
Today, something may happen. I didn't even think about it until this morning and I started to wonder what, if anything, would happen.
Then I had to remind myself that it is an issue of trust. In reality it is a test in a way. Are things as solid as I think they are? We will see.
"When it comes to our blind spots maybe our brains aren't compensating. Maybe they're protecting us."
"The problem is that sometimes our blind spots shield us from the things that really shouldn't be ignored.
"Sometimes our blind spots keep us bright and shiny."
Are there times we chose not to acknowledge those blind spots? That we would rather live in our ignorance than face up to what may be happening?
Today, something may happen. I didn't even think about it until this morning and I started to wonder what, if anything, would happen.
Then I had to remind myself that it is an issue of trust. In reality it is a test in a way. Are things as solid as I think they are? We will see.
"When it comes to our blind spots maybe our brains aren't compensating. Maybe they're protecting us."
"Become"
There's so much more about you that you never let them see
You turn away
But not to me
And I know how they tried to take you
Held you up and meant to break you down
But you can't be
For so long I tried to reach you
I know I'm almost there
I'm close enough for you to see
You've been hiding in the shadows
Have you forgotten how we used to dream
Let me remind you
The light doesn't blind you at all
It just helps you see
Can you see
Yeah you have become
Yeah you have become beautiful
And I can't be the stranger
That's been sleeping in your bed just
Turn around and come to me
I feel all the pain inside
And everything you been denied you feel
It's all you feel
You've been hiding in the shadows
Have you forgotten how we used to dream
Let me remind you
The light doesn't blind you at all
It helps you see
Can you see
Yeah you have become
Yeah you have become beautiful
Yeah you have become
Yeah you have become beautiful
Brush back your hair and look around you
Feeling like the truth has found you here
You're here with me
Let love become the mirror
With no fear where you're from
You have become beautiful
- Goo Goo Dolls
You turn away
But not to me
And I know how they tried to take you
Held you up and meant to break you down
But you can't be
For so long I tried to reach you
I know I'm almost there
I'm close enough for you to see
You've been hiding in the shadows
Have you forgotten how we used to dream
Let me remind you
The light doesn't blind you at all
It just helps you see
Can you see
Yeah you have become
Yeah you have become beautiful
And I can't be the stranger
That's been sleeping in your bed just
Turn around and come to me
I feel all the pain inside
And everything you been denied you feel
It's all you feel
You've been hiding in the shadows
Have you forgotten how we used to dream
Let me remind you
The light doesn't blind you at all
It helps you see
Can you see
Yeah you have become
Yeah you have become beautiful
Yeah you have become
Yeah you have become beautiful
Brush back your hair and look around you
Feeling like the truth has found you here
You're here with me
Let love become the mirror
With no fear where you're from
You have become beautiful
- Goo Goo Dolls
Philosophies
"A famous philosopher once said we don't know what we want, but we are responsible for who we are...
"He was French and had a lot of time on his hands. But he's not wrong...
"Nobody wants to take responsibility for anything really. Their actions, their words, their secrets, their desires. And the hardest thing, to be responsible for someone else and that’s something you have to work for. And you won't know if your ready until you try."
- Six Degrees
Responsibility is huge! It means you are in charge of something. You are the leader, co-leader, whatever. It is HUGE! And normally we are only willing to accept it when it is in our favor.
We may not know exactly what we want, but in the end we have to account for our actions.
One of the things that hit me hardest in this statement is to be responsible for someone else is something we have to work for.
In life it is so true. Nothing is ever really given to us. Marriage, children, leadership positions, etc. are all something we have to work to keep and they are all big responsibilities.
I think perhaps this is one of the things that scares me about marriage. Knowing that I need to pick the right companion that I will be able to share responsibilities with. It is a joint effort and it will only work if both sides are functioning.
In my life, I have been in a one oar boat going in circles. That is not something I want for my future family.
"I don't get you people," O'Mally said.
"Us with the boobs?" M. Grey replied.
"Yeah," he said with a sigh.
"We make a lot of bad decisions..."
I am having one of those days today, where I am not making the best decisions. It is interesting how the things we do affect how we feel. When we are doing what we are supposed to be doing, life is great. And when we fall flat on our face, it really sucks.
The responsibility of everything along with some personal frustrations only adds to it. What really gets me is that I know how to go around the pot holes and yet I still manage to find the big ones.
One of the great reliefs in my life is that I am finding fewer and fewer pot holes. I keep reminding myself that I am building a mountain and that when I seem to fall I am actually packing the dirt underneath me. So, I am not falling all the way to the bottom of the hill, but I am still climbing.
"He was French and had a lot of time on his hands. But he's not wrong...
"Nobody wants to take responsibility for anything really. Their actions, their words, their secrets, their desires. And the hardest thing, to be responsible for someone else and that’s something you have to work for. And you won't know if your ready until you try."
- Six Degrees
Responsibility is huge! It means you are in charge of something. You are the leader, co-leader, whatever. It is HUGE! And normally we are only willing to accept it when it is in our favor.
We may not know exactly what we want, but in the end we have to account for our actions.
One of the things that hit me hardest in this statement is to be responsible for someone else is something we have to work for.
In life it is so true. Nothing is ever really given to us. Marriage, children, leadership positions, etc. are all something we have to work to keep and they are all big responsibilities.
I think perhaps this is one of the things that scares me about marriage. Knowing that I need to pick the right companion that I will be able to share responsibilities with. It is a joint effort and it will only work if both sides are functioning.
In my life, I have been in a one oar boat going in circles. That is not something I want for my future family.
"I don't get you people," O'Mally said.
"Us with the boobs?" M. Grey replied.
"Yeah," he said with a sigh.
"We make a lot of bad decisions..."
I am having one of those days today, where I am not making the best decisions. It is interesting how the things we do affect how we feel. When we are doing what we are supposed to be doing, life is great. And when we fall flat on our face, it really sucks.
The responsibility of everything along with some personal frustrations only adds to it. What really gets me is that I know how to go around the pot holes and yet I still manage to find the big ones.
One of the great reliefs in my life is that I am finding fewer and fewer pot holes. I keep reminding myself that I am building a mountain and that when I seem to fall I am actually packing the dirt underneath me. So, I am not falling all the way to the bottom of the hill, but I am still climbing.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Halloween... and a few dems...
Halloween was a night of fun. Melissa had me take my iPod to her party so it could play DJ (bad choice). I had to hurry and make a new play list so that I was not struggling with the thing all night. I even had to steal music from Trevor so that I was semi cool... Not a pretty site.In the end, she had a full house and someone else brought in their computer to play DJ (smart).
Trevor contends he was looking at a hair, but I question that statement...
Tim is so much fun
Some random peps that showed up...
We left the party early to put out some signs and in the midst of that, there were some other signs that were having some struggles...
Can't we all just get along and be friends???
The interesting thing in the middle of all this political hoop-la is Trevor and I's relationship. There are people out there who seem to think it is their business... We are still a bit confused about how people found out because we aren't out in public that often (at least in Ogden). But in the end, it doesn't matter. It is just interesting that there are people out there who seem to have nothing better to worry about.
Beware
What happens when you tell us that you like someone and then refuse to call them? (and you have had this person's number for more than one week...)
We attack your phone, extract the number and take matters into our own hands (whether good or not :/).
To describe the pics, Elle is trying to come after me to get Trevor's phone, which has Boy Toy's number in it.
Eventually, she was successful in escaping and proceeded to chase me up the stairs and out the front door. She chased me around outside for a minute until I handed the phone off to Trevor. She then turned her sites to him and tried to dig the phone out of his back pocket.
He told her if she didn't stop, he would pin her down on the ground (note the color of her sweater...) and make her watch him call the BT.
She didn't listen... The result was not pretty... Trevor called the BT and left the funniest message. At some point Elle got free and started chasing Trevor again. But by then, it was too late... The damage was done.
Unfortunately the BT never called her, but I say that is his loss and he is a nerd...
Just beware... ;)
ugh...
I am getting a little frustrated with the whole job search thing... I am almost asking myself what the point of it is...
The Standard-Examiner finally called me back today and told me they decided to go with a mobile, online journalist something-or-other (i.e. Gannet News Service). Here at the DNews I am stagnant and I don't know if a move to the Trib is a wise thing.
The other papers I have put resumes in to, I haven't heard from and I am not sure I want to either.
I just need to find something that will make me happy. Not to say I am not happy right now. Working part-time here is hard because I am out of the loop on so many things.
It was good to have the trials and endurance lesson last Sunday. I just have to remember that all of this is for some reason that I may never know.
Here are a few random thoughts I have:
- "In the hour of adversity be not without hope. For crystal rains fall from black clouds."
- "Trials are not a result of breaking the law or wickedness. It is because you are laying the foundation of the kingdom of God to prepare the way for Jesus Christ." Pres. Wilford Woodruff
- If you stay at the same level, things never get any harder and you are not learning what you need to.
- Squeezing by is not the best way. The bare minimum is not enough.
- Blessings before trials come so that we can see the hand of the Lord in our lives to give us the strength we need to get through the trial.
- Although the gospel doesn't change, it allows us to change.
- Sometimes bad things have to happen to force good things to happen.
- Whenever we want to give up Heavenly Father is there to cheer us on.
- "Don't confuse Zion with the Celestial Kingdom. In Zion wee will still have troubles." Sis. Okasaki
- Trials and opposition give us experience and help us prepare for Celestial glory.
- We were not sent to this earth to simply be born. We were sent to endure and return home.
The Standard-Examiner finally called me back today and told me they decided to go with a mobile, online journalist something-or-other (i.e. Gannet News Service). Here at the DNews I am stagnant and I don't know if a move to the Trib is a wise thing.
The other papers I have put resumes in to, I haven't heard from and I am not sure I want to either.
I just need to find something that will make me happy. Not to say I am not happy right now. Working part-time here is hard because I am out of the loop on so many things.
It was good to have the trials and endurance lesson last Sunday. I just have to remember that all of this is for some reason that I may never know.
Here are a few random thoughts I have:
- "In the hour of adversity be not without hope. For crystal rains fall from black clouds."
- "Trials are not a result of breaking the law or wickedness. It is because you are laying the foundation of the kingdom of God to prepare the way for Jesus Christ." Pres. Wilford Woodruff
- If you stay at the same level, things never get any harder and you are not learning what you need to.
- Squeezing by is not the best way. The bare minimum is not enough.
- Blessings before trials come so that we can see the hand of the Lord in our lives to give us the strength we need to get through the trial.
- Although the gospel doesn't change, it allows us to change.
- Sometimes bad things have to happen to force good things to happen.
- Whenever we want to give up Heavenly Father is there to cheer us on.
- "Don't confuse Zion with the Celestial Kingdom. In Zion wee will still have troubles." Sis. Okasaki
- Trials and opposition give us experience and help us prepare for Celestial glory.
- We were not sent to this earth to simply be born. We were sent to endure and return home.
Grey's inspiration for the week
"You came back..." M. Grey said.
"You asked before why I came back the first time. You know, I tried not to. I went on dates. I had a lot of great first dates with guys who were planning to stay guys. But you know, you have a great date and you want to go tell your best friend about it... And then you have a few bad dates. She's my best friend, she knows me, she loves me... At the end of the day, it's Donna, even when she hurts me, even when I hate her," said the patient's wife.
"She's who you want to talk to," Grey said.
"Not all wounds are superficial...
"Most wounds run deeper than imagined. You can't see them with a naked eye...
"And then, there are the wounds that take us by surprise...
"The trick with any kind of wound, or disease, is to dig down and find the real source of the injury...
"And once you've found it, try like hell to heal that sucker," Grey said.
There are those people who hurt you in life and for some reason, you return to them. You are not sure why, but you do. At the end of the day, that person is your friend, the one you trust to tell your deepest sorrows to and you are willing to look beyond one small thing because of something greater.
Not all of our wounds can be seen from the outside. Sometimes we become so skilled as to bury the wounds deep inside and put some pretty hefty fences around them. We convince ourselves that this is OK and it is the best protection we can get.
What we don't see, in our short-sighted human nature, is how hard it will be to dig out and heal that wound later on. No relationship can ever be truly functional if those wounds are not healed and often times we look other places to make us feel better and "heal" those wounds.
I say this because there are still trust issues to be worked out. If you cannot openly share with someone the feelings that are deep inside of you, your relationship is only superficial. This superficial relationship has a lack of trust and that opens the door to jealous tendencies, among other things.
I find myself struggling with this very issue. There are few people I trust my life with right now. Even still, there are things I hold back and I know that is hindering my ability to have a relationship that is deep and could maybe lead to something more. I am also a suspicious person (which is a positive for work...) I am just greatful to two very special people in my life right now who, even though they may not know it, help me to build bridges over the troubled waters in my life.
"People don't come to me to fix what's on the outside, they come to fix what's on the inside," said Dr. McSteamy, the plastic surgeon.
"You asked before why I came back the first time. You know, I tried not to. I went on dates. I had a lot of great first dates with guys who were planning to stay guys. But you know, you have a great date and you want to go tell your best friend about it... And then you have a few bad dates. She's my best friend, she knows me, she loves me... At the end of the day, it's Donna, even when she hurts me, even when I hate her," said the patient's wife.
"She's who you want to talk to," Grey said.
"Not all wounds are superficial...
"Most wounds run deeper than imagined. You can't see them with a naked eye...
"And then, there are the wounds that take us by surprise...
"The trick with any kind of wound, or disease, is to dig down and find the real source of the injury...
"And once you've found it, try like hell to heal that sucker," Grey said.
There are those people who hurt you in life and for some reason, you return to them. You are not sure why, but you do. At the end of the day, that person is your friend, the one you trust to tell your deepest sorrows to and you are willing to look beyond one small thing because of something greater.
Not all of our wounds can be seen from the outside. Sometimes we become so skilled as to bury the wounds deep inside and put some pretty hefty fences around them. We convince ourselves that this is OK and it is the best protection we can get.
What we don't see, in our short-sighted human nature, is how hard it will be to dig out and heal that wound later on. No relationship can ever be truly functional if those wounds are not healed and often times we look other places to make us feel better and "heal" those wounds.
I say this because there are still trust issues to be worked out. If you cannot openly share with someone the feelings that are deep inside of you, your relationship is only superficial. This superficial relationship has a lack of trust and that opens the door to jealous tendencies, among other things.
I find myself struggling with this very issue. There are few people I trust my life with right now. Even still, there are things I hold back and I know that is hindering my ability to have a relationship that is deep and could maybe lead to something more. I am also a suspicious person (which is a positive for work...) I am just greatful to two very special people in my life right now who, even though they may not know it, help me to build bridges over the troubled waters in my life.
"People don't come to me to fix what's on the outside, they come to fix what's on the inside," said Dr. McSteamy, the plastic surgeon.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
phew...
A lot has been going on in the last few weeks. There have been many private and public struggles in my life. Through it all, the Lord has shown me his tender mercies through simple acts and people around me.
I am so greatful for the priesthood in my life, for men who seek the inspired council of the Lord so that they may open the windows of heaven to our lives. The Lord truly is mindful of us and wants us to succeed.
Last Monday, I went to Elle's house and shared a Family Home Evening with her family. They are so wonderful and there is a great spirit in that house. He father also gave me a beautiful blessing that helped to give me some reassurance about things that are going on in my life right now.
The FHE lesson centered around Doctrine and Covenants 46:28-33. It is interesting how many things I have studied in the last week have linked to something in these verses.
First of all, we talked about what it was to be "in Spirit." How do you get "in Spirit"?
There is a footnote that points to Ezq. 36:27. In a nutshell, it states that to be "in Spirit" we need to walk in His statues, keep His judgements and (most importantly, I think) do them. I also came upon another scripture in D&C 11:12 that gives three things: do justly, walk humbly and judge righteously.
The verses then go on to talk about asking in the Spirit and according to the will of God. What is the will of God?
I thought about this for a minute and I thought about the word desire. This word leads to so much we either do or don't do in our lives. The scriptures talk about how we are rewarded according to our desires. For example, our righteous actions and the resulting blessings lead us to want to be more righteous.
For me, the will of God is the desire he has for us to be obedient and return home. There are many things he desires of us and that is the reason we are given guidelines (commandments, scriptures, covenants, etc.). Everything the Lord does and asks of us is because He wants us to succeed and grow while we are here.
President Corbridge talked about our desires and how it would affect our missions and our lives following the mission. I have started to mark the word in my scriptures. It is interesting to see when the word comes up and the context it is in. Desire is very powerful.
Elle's dad talked about how the will of God is to think as God thinks. When our thoughts are aligned with God's, amazing things can happen. Look at the ancient prophets and the trust God had in them to bring to pass the many miracles.
When we are aligned with God, we know that all must be done in the name of Christ (v. 30). Anything that is done in the Spirit needs to be done in His name. This is why Christ's church must bear His name and ordinances such as baptism and giving the Gift of the Holy Ghost must be done in His name.
This leads to my last thought in the closing verses. It says we must give thanks in the Spirit. When I read this, I thought about a recent talk given by Pres. Boyd K Packer in our October stake conference. He said we must learn to think about our prayers. Often, I think we get lost in vain repetitions. If we are in the Spirit, we are more likely to have an actual conversation with the Lord.
I have found that when I talk to my Father in Heaven, my prayers not only mean more, but I feel the Spirit more. The personal nature of our prayers reflects our understanding of our relationship with Deity.
The light of Christ should be in us because we are made from His light. When this light is illuminated inside of us, we have desires to share it with other people (It is amazing how our desires can pull other people in for better or worse). But when we partake of truth and it moves a change within us, we want to share it with others because we want them to have the same opportunity.
What will your desires do for you?
I am so greatful for the priesthood in my life, for men who seek the inspired council of the Lord so that they may open the windows of heaven to our lives. The Lord truly is mindful of us and wants us to succeed.
Last Monday, I went to Elle's house and shared a Family Home Evening with her family. They are so wonderful and there is a great spirit in that house. He father also gave me a beautiful blessing that helped to give me some reassurance about things that are going on in my life right now.
The FHE lesson centered around Doctrine and Covenants 46:28-33. It is interesting how many things I have studied in the last week have linked to something in these verses.
First of all, we talked about what it was to be "in Spirit." How do you get "in Spirit"?
There is a footnote that points to Ezq. 36:27. In a nutshell, it states that to be "in Spirit" we need to walk in His statues, keep His judgements and (most importantly, I think) do them. I also came upon another scripture in D&C 11:12 that gives three things: do justly, walk humbly and judge righteously.
The verses then go on to talk about asking in the Spirit and according to the will of God. What is the will of God?
I thought about this for a minute and I thought about the word desire. This word leads to so much we either do or don't do in our lives. The scriptures talk about how we are rewarded according to our desires. For example, our righteous actions and the resulting blessings lead us to want to be more righteous.
For me, the will of God is the desire he has for us to be obedient and return home. There are many things he desires of us and that is the reason we are given guidelines (commandments, scriptures, covenants, etc.). Everything the Lord does and asks of us is because He wants us to succeed and grow while we are here.
President Corbridge talked about our desires and how it would affect our missions and our lives following the mission. I have started to mark the word in my scriptures. It is interesting to see when the word comes up and the context it is in. Desire is very powerful.
Elle's dad talked about how the will of God is to think as God thinks. When our thoughts are aligned with God's, amazing things can happen. Look at the ancient prophets and the trust God had in them to bring to pass the many miracles.
When we are aligned with God, we know that all must be done in the name of Christ (v. 30). Anything that is done in the Spirit needs to be done in His name. This is why Christ's church must bear His name and ordinances such as baptism and giving the Gift of the Holy Ghost must be done in His name.
This leads to my last thought in the closing verses. It says we must give thanks in the Spirit. When I read this, I thought about a recent talk given by Pres. Boyd K Packer in our October stake conference. He said we must learn to think about our prayers. Often, I think we get lost in vain repetitions. If we are in the Spirit, we are more likely to have an actual conversation with the Lord.
I have found that when I talk to my Father in Heaven, my prayers not only mean more, but I feel the Spirit more. The personal nature of our prayers reflects our understanding of our relationship with Deity.
The light of Christ should be in us because we are made from His light. When this light is illuminated inside of us, we have desires to share it with other people (It is amazing how our desires can pull other people in for better or worse). But when we partake of truth and it moves a change within us, we want to share it with others because we want them to have the same opportunity.
What will your desires do for you?
Thursday, November 09, 2006
commitments and surprises
"There are times when even the best of us have trouble with commitment," M. Grey said.
"George. I was rude to you before and I'm sorry. I understand what you are trying to say. You're the pig and you are... committed... I mean, we broke up and I've been wanting to hear this from you for how long, and now to say this to me, until after we break up. I'm out of my element here. I break bones for a living. I used to live in the basement. Most days I wear last nights eyeliner to work and I don't give a crap about what people think about me because I am a happily, independent, successful woman and I like it that way. Only when you say stuff like this? it just, it just makes it too hard. So please, don't chase me any more. Unless you are ready to catch me," Kali said.
"And we may be surprised by the commitments we are willing to let slip out of our grasp," said M. Grey, as George let Kali walk away.
"Commitments are complicated... We may surprise ourselves at the commitments we are willing to make. True commitment takes effort and sacrifice. Which is why sometimes we have to learn the hard way to choose our commitments very carefully."
I have thought about this a lot during the past few days. It hasn't necessarily been in the matter of relationships, but life.
Are we ready to catch the commitments we seek? Do we surprise ourselves when we get to that turning point and we walk away because it isn't what we thought it was? Are we surprised at what we are willing to do in order to get to something else?
Right now in my life I am at the limbo point of full-time work and thinking about going back to school. I am analyzing the commitments I am willing to make and looking at other commitments that I may or may not be willing to make to get to my ultimate goals.
I know I need to get my master's degree. The question is, "In what?" When I graduated I was really gung-ho to get my grad exams done and get moving on it this next year. Now I am in a limbo of sorts. I was going to get my MBA and now I am not sure if that is where I need to go.
I know I need to get a real person's job. My hesitation, I think, is that I have never really committed to something long term. I don't know what it is like to have a sort of job security. Newspaper keeps me on my toes. There are also other things that nag at me. I love to organize things and be in the know. When I was running PR and political campaigns, I was having a blast. I have also thought about getting involved in politics (which makes me lean toward a master's in politics and communication). (If Tony Mottes ever read that, he would laugh. But that is another story for another day.)
The only real commitment I have made is to the Church. I think the reasoning for that is because I know it to be true, I know a direction I need to go and I know where I will be going after this life. Even still, there are callings that require our attention and time. In this, I am reminded of a couple of quotes:
"Our willingness to serve in our callings, whatever they may be, is a reflection of our dedication to the Lord."
"With your call come great promises. One of those promises is that the Lord will guide you by revelation just as He called you. You must ask in faith for revelation to know what you are to do. With your call come the promise that answers will come. But that guidance will come only when the Lord is sure you will obey. To know His will you must be committed to do it. The words, "Thy will be done," written in the heart are the window of revelation.?
In the end, I would imagine this is what it comes down to. Just as we will be guided in our callings, according to our obedience, the Lord will guide us in our lives by that same revelation. As we obey in our lives and live according to gospel principles, the Lord will open that window of revelation and show us where we need to go and what we need to do.
Everything stems on our willingness to be obedient and committed to the Lord and his will.
"George. I was rude to you before and I'm sorry. I understand what you are trying to say. You're the pig and you are... committed... I mean, we broke up and I've been wanting to hear this from you for how long, and now to say this to me, until after we break up. I'm out of my element here. I break bones for a living. I used to live in the basement. Most days I wear last nights eyeliner to work and I don't give a crap about what people think about me because I am a happily, independent, successful woman and I like it that way. Only when you say stuff like this? it just, it just makes it too hard. So please, don't chase me any more. Unless you are ready to catch me," Kali said.
"And we may be surprised by the commitments we are willing to let slip out of our grasp," said M. Grey, as George let Kali walk away.
"Commitments are complicated... We may surprise ourselves at the commitments we are willing to make. True commitment takes effort and sacrifice. Which is why sometimes we have to learn the hard way to choose our commitments very carefully."
I have thought about this a lot during the past few days. It hasn't necessarily been in the matter of relationships, but life.
Are we ready to catch the commitments we seek? Do we surprise ourselves when we get to that turning point and we walk away because it isn't what we thought it was? Are we surprised at what we are willing to do in order to get to something else?
Right now in my life I am at the limbo point of full-time work and thinking about going back to school. I am analyzing the commitments I am willing to make and looking at other commitments that I may or may not be willing to make to get to my ultimate goals.
I know I need to get my master's degree. The question is, "In what?" When I graduated I was really gung-ho to get my grad exams done and get moving on it this next year. Now I am in a limbo of sorts. I was going to get my MBA and now I am not sure if that is where I need to go.
I know I need to get a real person's job. My hesitation, I think, is that I have never really committed to something long term. I don't know what it is like to have a sort of job security. Newspaper keeps me on my toes. There are also other things that nag at me. I love to organize things and be in the know. When I was running PR and political campaigns, I was having a blast. I have also thought about getting involved in politics (which makes me lean toward a master's in politics and communication). (If Tony Mottes ever read that, he would laugh. But that is another story for another day.)
The only real commitment I have made is to the Church. I think the reasoning for that is because I know it to be true, I know a direction I need to go and I know where I will be going after this life. Even still, there are callings that require our attention and time. In this, I am reminded of a couple of quotes:
"Our willingness to serve in our callings, whatever they may be, is a reflection of our dedication to the Lord."
"With your call come great promises. One of those promises is that the Lord will guide you by revelation just as He called you. You must ask in faith for revelation to know what you are to do. With your call come the promise that answers will come. But that guidance will come only when the Lord is sure you will obey. To know His will you must be committed to do it. The words, "Thy will be done," written in the heart are the window of revelation.?
In the end, I would imagine this is what it comes down to. Just as we will be guided in our callings, according to our obedience, the Lord will guide us in our lives by that same revelation. As we obey in our lives and live according to gospel principles, the Lord will open that window of revelation and show us where we need to go and what we need to do.
Everything stems on our willingness to be obedient and committed to the Lord and his will.
Photos
I joined this thing call PhotoBucket and I am going to start uploading my photos there. Hopefully this will be an easier way for people to see my photos without having to scroll through large amounts on the blog.
My Chile photos are among the first, along with some other random albums.
Catedral de Santiago
Chile
Iglesia de San Francisco
Random Iglesias>
The Coast
Havasupai Reservation
Switchfoot
My Chile photos are among the first, along with some other random albums.
Catedral de Santiago
Chile
Iglesia de San Francisco
Random Iglesias>
The Coast
Havasupai Reservation
Switchfoot
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
Things
Many things have been going on in the last couple of weeks. Good things and hard things...
I have struggled with some things on the inside working to mask the pain and frustration I am feeling. On top of that the world seems to be hurtling at me like a 16 lb. bowling ball.
Last week, as I was struggling to get a GINORMOUS story done and in, my editor informes me that they are cutting my hours at work. Something about labor laws and me working too many hours without benefits. I look at it one way, saying they could have let me go. At least I still have a job, but it is hard for me to hang out on days I don't have to work.
I ended up working at the end of the week last week anyway trying to get my story done and following up on other things. This week has given me some time to edit photos and get my laptop cleaned off (I was down to 6 MB of space today...). Tomorrow will be my first day at work in a week... it will be interesting to get back in to that mode.
Thankfully, I have had great people around me to help me forget about the small things that aren't going right at the moment.
Trevor came with me as I worked elections on Tuesday. It was very kind of him, considering he had family of his own who would be awaiting results. The night was longer than planned because there was a missing card and another corrupt card. We left the building around 2 a.m. Both of us were hashed...
Today was another leasure day. I helped his family clean out the garage and we went car shopping with his sister. I also plugged in to his network and picked up another 800+ songs. feliz...
I have struggled with some things on the inside working to mask the pain and frustration I am feeling. On top of that the world seems to be hurtling at me like a 16 lb. bowling ball.
Last week, as I was struggling to get a GINORMOUS story done and in, my editor informes me that they are cutting my hours at work. Something about labor laws and me working too many hours without benefits. I look at it one way, saying they could have let me go. At least I still have a job, but it is hard for me to hang out on days I don't have to work.
I ended up working at the end of the week last week anyway trying to get my story done and following up on other things. This week has given me some time to edit photos and get my laptop cleaned off (I was down to 6 MB of space today...). Tomorrow will be my first day at work in a week... it will be interesting to get back in to that mode.
Thankfully, I have had great people around me to help me forget about the small things that aren't going right at the moment.
Trevor came with me as I worked elections on Tuesday. It was very kind of him, considering he had family of his own who would be awaiting results. The night was longer than planned because there was a missing card and another corrupt card. We left the building around 2 a.m. Both of us were hashed...
Today was another leasure day. I helped his family clean out the garage and we went car shopping with his sister. I also plugged in to his network and picked up another 800+ songs. feliz...
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