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Things are not what they appear

I am working toward finishing my final project. This is going to be the title, although I do not know why. Everthing seemed like such a good idea in the beginning.

Maybe it is because with me, "Things are not always what they seem." ;) Not many people know me for me. Sometimes, I struggle to express 'me' through my photographs.

It is funny, because I will make a picture and months or years later I will figure out what I was trying to say. Drex keeps telling me that photography is a work in progress. There are so many projects I see in my head. When I graduate, I will make the time to complete those projects. This is a promise I am making to myself.

I keep all of my ideas in my sketchbook. I have already started to think about my senior project. It will be combined with my Design: 3D class. I am excited because I have never done an installation before.

What gets me the most is when people are not quite what they seem. Last night I had an interesting conversation with someone about T. I was unfortunatly wrong about him, unless he proves to me otherwise. The door has not been completely shut on the idea, but I definitly will proceed with caution. I do not want to get my heart broken again. It hurts too much.

He has not called since Saturday night and has been otherwise distant. Not a bright outlook I imagine. Too bad. I really liked him.

Tonight I am going to perform a few piano pieces. It has been a while since I have played for a group solo. I am a little nervous. Our activity is a grandparents Thanksgiving Dinner. G'pa Bill and Marylin will be coming with me. We will see how it goes.

Upward and onward in the persuit of eternal happiness!

I am thankful for vacations

Vacations are a good time to reflect on what you have done. It also gives you time to think about what is to come.

The Thanksgiving Holiday will come as a welcome friend. I will be sleeping in, shooting a lot of photos and enjoying time with my family. Going to see my father's side of the family is fun, with the exception of Lois. I think she might be bi-polar... Odd, odd lady.

T and I ended up watching a movie on Saturday night, at about midnight. We watched Racing Stripes (cute movie for children). It was okay, not what we thought it was going to be. After the movie he showed me some self defense moves (everyone watch out, I can kick your butt now!). We watched some television and he got friendly, a little odd I thought. In the back of my mind came a voice saying he was just like all the others. But I did not want to believe it. I told myself, "Someone doesn't get this friendly if they don't like a person." I hope I am right, because it hurts to be wrong.

I seem to find those who want a one night something-or-other and then do the disappearing act. Ugh! I need to learn how to dicern better. I am worth more than that. Going out on one date does not constitute engagement, I know. But either be somewhat hands-off, or make the committment to that second call.

"Don't worry. Your dating life is just on sabatical," Jason said wisely. I just chuckled. But it is so true. I just want to find someone who will respect me for me and who I can go out and have a good time with. No more chasing (that is why I have deleated several phone numbers). If they cannot dial nine digits, then they are just not that into me. ;)

Reporting live from Cedar City, UT

I am making it all over the place! Here in Cedar City I am shooting the last WSU football game. We are playing our instate rivals, SUU for bragging rights. It should not be too hard as they have won one game this year... Sounds familiar... Oh, hey! That was our winning record last year.

This is year is different though. We will finish with a repulable 6-4 overall record. There were a couple of hard losses, games we should have won really. We may even have a shot at the playoffs. Wee-haw!

The game was a good one. At times it seemed like it would be a close game. But our boys game out and played well. Final:27-10, WSU.
I slept for most of the trip. It was nice. I also spent about three hours working on my study guide for my art history test on Monday. Ugh! These tests are always such beasts. At least I can have four pages of notes for the test. Text: 6point.

Our bus has an injector problem. We are waiting for another bus to come and get us. We will be leaving about 6ish. I called my dad to come and fix the bus but he was in Las Vegas dropping a load of cars and picking up some others. He told me to send them to Color Country Diesel. Hopefully they take care of them.

Tonight's outting is looking a little dim. I am supposed to go out with T. We were going to go see Walk The Line. Bummer. I was looking forward to it. He seems like someone who is different, not like the rest of the guys out there who are looking for something short and then never call you back again. We have some things in common: we both swam, we both like hockey (he played), the outdoors, etc.

Although I cannot expect too much. Who knows, he may turn out to be not quite what I thought. I just feel different around him... okay, we are not going to go there.

The trip was great! Traveling reminds me of how nice it will be to be done with school and working. I will make a better effort to go visit places and really focus on my photography and my GMAT exam.

Reporting live from Dallas, TX

I am sitting here writing to you from Dallas, TX. Sometimes in all my ventures I feel like some kind of war correspondent, writing to you from a distant land. And let me tell you, this seems like a distant land.

As the plane was landing I noticed a football stadium. I thought to myself, "How nice..." Then about two miles down the road there was another one. "Oh, that is cool." But when it continued, I realized just how serious they are about football here. Stadiums are almost like 7Elevens, one on every corner.

It was a nice flight. I did not have to be squished, so it was even nicer. Traveling is something I enjoy and I get a kind of relaxation out of it. Maybe it is just me, but I enjoy traveling alone. I like not having to be accountable to anyone and being able to do what I want.

For dinner, Lynlee and I scoped out some restaurants. We all ended up at On The Border. It is a Tex-Mex place with decent food. The chips were like half corn tortillas cut in half and then fried. The salsa was excellent.

Helpful hint for the next time you are in Texas: Salmon can be mistaken for Sampler... This is what happened to me, to the degree that I did not get my food until everyone else was done eating. The upside: We did not get charged for it. When the salmon did come though, it was excellent. It is now in a to-go box in our little fridge.

Yesterday I shot the first round of the Women's NCAA Soccer Tournament. It was a fun place to be and I had the opportunity to talk with some photogs. It was a rough game for the Cats because the ref was calling fouls about every other time a player touched the ball. The Cougs rarely were called for fouls.

In the end, the game became quite intense. It ended in a tie, 1-1. The game then went into a regulation 10 minute overtime. No goals were scored. So, it continued into another 10 minute overtime. Still no goals. The next step was a ten point shoot-out. Weber won the shoot-out 4-3.

It was a key win for the Cats. I believe it really helped to boost their confidence. It was the first time the Cats beat the Cougs in 10 years; the Cougs are also nationally ranked at 14 (now 17th due to the loss); AND it is the first time the Cats have ever advanced to the sencond round of the tournament. WOW!

It was emotional for everyone. Rochelle Hoover, 3, secured the win with the final shoot-out kick. Candice, the goalie, also had four key saves in the shoot-out.

Unfortunatly, The Signpost did not see fit to give the team any coverage on the front. Editors were too worried about going home, rather than breaking news and having to re-do the front page. I was quite disappointed. Many other students also made comments to me today regarding the lack of appearance. The Standard-Examiner even saw fit to run a photo and caption on their front page. Hmm...

It is my worry that lazy journalists are coming through the ranks. These young journalists do not know how to find their own information. They expect everything to be handed to them. It is unfortunate they are unwilling to cover controvercial stories because they might offend someone. This alone is a blow to the very thing journalists have fought for for many years: Right to an open government and freedom of the press.

Passion must replace fear. A passion, remembering we are here to inform the public. A journalist does not become a journalist for selfish reasons. A journalist should become a journalist to help keep our government and society accountable for what it does, to inform the public and most importantly, the right to know.

All hail for Sunshine and a FREE press!

Five weeks to go!

I can't believe everything is passing by so quickly. There is only a blessed five weeks left in the semester. What was I thinking when I signed up for 19 credit hours?! Obviously I was crazy. On top of that I have two jobs.

Next semester will be a welcome relief. I will take 12 credit hours. The only blast to the gut is there will be three art lab classes. I believe, however, all will work out as planned. The only think that keeps me going is singing the graduation song and doing a dance when no one is looking. ;)

I drove up to Monte Cristo on Saturday to look at the snow on the ground. It is such an exciting time of year! Let it snow! Let it snow! Let it snow! Sometime this week or next I will be taking my skis in to get a tune-up. Wee-haw!

Found out this week that I got shafted by a boy. Jerk! He totally led me on, while unbeknownst to me he was chasing after someone else. Ugh!

My mother shoved this book into my hands called, "He's Just Not That Into You." It is halarious! Male and female are co-authors and they bring to light a lot of things we do as women. I read the pages and chuckle to myself because I have done it, or I know someone else who has. It is my recommended reading for the week.

As I prepare to leave the college life and move on, I think more and more about graduate school. It excites me! The thought of going somewhere else and studying something I have dremt about for many years is awesome! My mother does not like it because I would leave her home alone. I have to leave sometime, though, right?

Yeah for the power of women!