Things are getting interesting in life... I am buying a townehouse and it's pretty exciting. It will be close to work and I am building, so I get to chose the stuff that goes inside.
I am pretty nervouse because this is huge. But at the same time, it is a good investment for me to make. I will be that much closer to being settled and a little more prepared if marriage ever comes my way.
Stay tuned for photos!
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Moving on
There are always interesting things that happen in life. You graduate from school; you break up with the love of your life; you get a new job. Lots of stuff.
Recently there have been so many "moving on" points in my life and people probably look at what I write and roll their eyes. I hope you don't read this and ever think, "Oh, poor her" because that is not what this is all about. I want you to realize I write not only to get my frustrations out, but to let people know they are not alone.
So often we think we are alone when we are going through something. We look all around ourselves and wonder why we are the only ones having such a hard time; when we don't realize that they too are struggling, maybe just not as publicly.
Moving on is a good and necessary part of life. There are many times that we don't want to and we think things will just work themselves out. Well, they don't and the sooner we realize it, the better off we are. There are reasons things don't work out and that is because there is something bigger and better out there.
For example: I had this internship and it was my dream to get a job there. There was nothing better than waking up in the morning and knowing that I loved to go to work. They told me there would be a job and so I waited, and waited, and waited some more. Then they told me there wasn't going to be a job and I hung on in hopes that there would be one. It never came and I had to go job hunting.
My new job is wonderful and I enjoy it a ton. If I had not taken the hint to move on, I think I may have been and intern forever... I had to give up something good for something great. And this is so great!
Moving on is OK. It is a necessart part of life. Things will be OK.
Recently there have been so many "moving on" points in my life and people probably look at what I write and roll their eyes. I hope you don't read this and ever think, "Oh, poor her" because that is not what this is all about. I want you to realize I write not only to get my frustrations out, but to let people know they are not alone.
So often we think we are alone when we are going through something. We look all around ourselves and wonder why we are the only ones having such a hard time; when we don't realize that they too are struggling, maybe just not as publicly.
Moving on is a good and necessary part of life. There are many times that we don't want to and we think things will just work themselves out. Well, they don't and the sooner we realize it, the better off we are. There are reasons things don't work out and that is because there is something bigger and better out there.
For example: I had this internship and it was my dream to get a job there. There was nothing better than waking up in the morning and knowing that I loved to go to work. They told me there would be a job and so I waited, and waited, and waited some more. Then they told me there wasn't going to be a job and I hung on in hopes that there would be one. It never came and I had to go job hunting.
My new job is wonderful and I enjoy it a ton. If I had not taken the hint to move on, I think I may have been and intern forever... I had to give up something good for something great. And this is so great!
Moving on is OK. It is a necessart part of life. Things will be OK.
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Insecurities
I don't like not knowing where I am with people. I struggle with insecurities when I don't know. Tonight a friend said something to me (in a laughing manner) and it brought back some feelings that I had previously pushed away into some crevis.
I dated this boy for a long time and I wasn't ever secure in the fact that we were dating because I was always introduced as a "friend." He was flirtatious with other girls I didn't know and that was hard for me.
I stayed pretty secure in the times he would tell me I was beautiful, but even that wasn't a lot. It was hard because the way he looked at other chicks and talked about their "attributes" made me feel inferior... And one day I found out why because of a comment that was never meant for my eyes.
In that moment I can't even describe my feelings. I felt like everything that was previously said lost it's meaning.
That's when things dove into a black abyss at lightening speed. Things were already going downhill and I tried to hide from it. Maybe that was the Lord's way, very painful way, of hitting me upside the head.
I still question things. People make comments and I just brush them off because I wonder if they really mean it, or if they are just saying it... Did he ever mean it even though he "wasn't as attracted" as he wanted to be to me???
Lani said something the other night when I was so sick. It is one of the few things I remember, I think mostly because I felt the Spirit. She looked me directly in the eyes and said, "I don't know why people can't see what a diamond you are. There is so much they are missing."
I want someone to share my life with, but I only want it knowing that I am the only person they see. I only want to share if they will share with me. I only want it if I can feel the same spirit I did with Lani and the words she spoke.
I don't want to be second guessing myself around other chicks.
I dated this boy for a long time and I wasn't ever secure in the fact that we were dating because I was always introduced as a "friend." He was flirtatious with other girls I didn't know and that was hard for me.
I stayed pretty secure in the times he would tell me I was beautiful, but even that wasn't a lot. It was hard because the way he looked at other chicks and talked about their "attributes" made me feel inferior... And one day I found out why because of a comment that was never meant for my eyes.
In that moment I can't even describe my feelings. I felt like everything that was previously said lost it's meaning.
That's when things dove into a black abyss at lightening speed. Things were already going downhill and I tried to hide from it. Maybe that was the Lord's way, very painful way, of hitting me upside the head.
I still question things. People make comments and I just brush them off because I wonder if they really mean it, or if they are just saying it... Did he ever mean it even though he "wasn't as attracted" as he wanted to be to me???
Lani said something the other night when I was so sick. It is one of the few things I remember, I think mostly because I felt the Spirit. She looked me directly in the eyes and said, "I don't know why people can't see what a diamond you are. There is so much they are missing."
I want someone to share my life with, but I only want it knowing that I am the only person they see. I only want to share if they will share with me. I only want it if I can feel the same spirit I did with Lani and the words she spoke.
I don't want to be second guessing myself around other chicks.
Attitude
I have decided that life is all about attitude.
When you make a decision about something, that is the way it is if you really want to work for it. I look in the mirror in the morning and I tell myself that I am freaking sexy and I feel it because I mean it.
How you feel about yourself radiates to others.
When you make a decision about something, that is the way it is if you really want to work for it. I look in the mirror in the morning and I tell myself that I am freaking sexy and I feel it because I mean it.
How you feel about yourself radiates to others.
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Winds of Change
I saw this video last week at the Business Marketing Association conference in Las Vegas. Marc Johnson, Kodak's Director of Industry Marketing Inkjet Printing Solutions, talked about how Kodak has had to change to get market share back.
We all know the phrase "That's a Kodak moment", or maybe you remember the Brownie Camera. But what do you do when digital replaces film? Kodak actually invented the first digital camera circa 1972 and sold it to Apple because they didn't think it would go anywhere... Wow!
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