"You think the world stops when you stop, but it doesn’t"
There is a scene in Face/Off where Nicholas Cage (the bad guy) steps out of a car all studly. With his aviators on, his long trench coat flys with the wind and everything seems to stop in that moment as eyes turn to him.
There is a coat I purchased recently and I love it! I got out of my car the other day and I was one hot mama. It was a moment of stepping out of the car and smelling the air around you. In that moment you know you are sexy, and you work to hold on to that feeling to save in the emotional piggy bank for days when you feel pretty cruddy.
Today the world seemed to stop around me, but it wasn't step-out-of-the-car-sexy kind of stop... My emotions have been in constant flux and I don't know why there are some things that are so hard for me. I lost my composure over a decision a friend made that I had no control over. It is something I have never done in front of him and I had to walk away...
On my way home, the tears fell from my eyes as I struggled to understand the things I am supposed to learn. There is a purpose for my struggles and I am working to find the ken. When I feel like doors are opening for me, or people are letting me take a glimpse inside, they seem to inadvertently close.
In a sense, I would say that what I am looking for is some consistency in my life. The roller coaster is only fun for so long before it starts to get monotonous and give you a knot in your stomach.
So, to fix the conundrum, I refuse to wallow and wonder why people do and say the things they do. I am going to wash my car, clean it out, get sexy and go sledding. Then it will be off to a party where I hope to see someone who, for me, is eye candy... MASARAP!
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Testimony
There will be a time when only our testimony of Jesus Christ will save us, and it is important for us to share that with as many people as possible.
On that same note, I look at many of the things we chose to let occupy our time. The other day someone said to me, "I don't have time..." What is that? Time is something we all have, it is a matter of what we chose to do with it. For me, the more correct grammar would be, "I haven't made time..." We are the masters of our time and our lives.
I think too, we justify those things we do. One friend of mine said, "I hate rap music." Great! I do to. Then he turns on his XBox and there is violence, women-degrading, and drugs... Well, what is rap about? Drugs, sex and violence. What makes the XBox any different from that music which he hates so much?
Do we sometimes become desensitized thinking that something is ok while we criticize the very same thing? The world is a jaded place. Games, television and other form of 'entertainment' aren't going to be what saves us. We will need our testimonies and that will be the only thing that will save us.
"The years have come and the years have gone, but the need for a testimony of the gospel continues paramount."
Settlin'
15 minutes left to throw me together
For mister right now, not mister forever
Don't know why I even try when I know how it ends
Lookin' like another maybe we could be friends
I've been leavin' it up to fate
It's my life so it's mine to make
I ain't settlin' just gettin' by
I've had enough so so for the rest of my life
Tired of shootin' too low so raise the bar high.
So, I'm just not waiting up this time
I ain't settlin' for anything less than everything.
With some good red wine and my brand new shoes
Gonna dance a blue streak around my livin' room
Take a chance on love and try how it feels
With my heart wide open now you know I will
Find what it means to be the girl
Change her mind and change her world
I ain't settlin' just gettin' by
I've had enough so so for the rest of my life
Tired of shootin' too low so raise the bar high.
So, I'm just not waiting up this time
I ain't settlin' for anything less than everything.
I ain't settlin' just gettin' by
I've had enough so so for the rest of my life
Tired of shootin' too low so raise the bar high.
I'm just not waiting up this time
I ain't settlin' just gettin' by
I've had enough so so for the rest of my life
Tired of shootin' too low so raise the bar high.
I ain't settlin' no, no, no, no, no, no….
So raise the bar high.
For mister right now, not mister forever
Don't know why I even try when I know how it ends
Lookin' like another maybe we could be friends
I've been leavin' it up to fate
It's my life so it's mine to make
I ain't settlin' just gettin' by
I've had enough so so for the rest of my life
Tired of shootin' too low so raise the bar high.
So, I'm just not waiting up this time
I ain't settlin' for anything less than everything.
With some good red wine and my brand new shoes
Gonna dance a blue streak around my livin' room
Take a chance on love and try how it feels
With my heart wide open now you know I will
Find what it means to be the girl
Change her mind and change her world
I ain't settlin' just gettin' by
I've had enough so so for the rest of my life
Tired of shootin' too low so raise the bar high.
So, I'm just not waiting up this time
I ain't settlin' for anything less than everything.
I ain't settlin' just gettin' by
I've had enough so so for the rest of my life
Tired of shootin' too low so raise the bar high.
I'm just not waiting up this time
I ain't settlin' just gettin' by
I've had enough so so for the rest of my life
Tired of shootin' too low so raise the bar high.
I ain't settlin' no, no, no, no, no, no….
So raise the bar high.
Friday, February 16, 2007
R-E-S-P-E-C-T
re·spect 
[ri-spekt] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –noun
How many people feel like they deserve respect and don't necessarily understand it is a privilege to have? I didn't really think about it until I read this definition.
I have been having this struggle lately in understanding how some feel they can demand my respect while failing to reciprocate it.
[ri-spekt] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –noun | 1. | a particular, detail, or point (usually prec. by in): to differ in some respect. |
| 2. | relation or reference: inquiries with respect to a route. |
| 3. | esteem for or a sense of the worth or excellence of a person, a personal quality or ability, or something considered as a manifestation of a personal quality or ability: I have great respect for her judgment. |
| 4. | deference to a right, privilege, privileged position, or someone or something considered to have certain rights or privileges; proper acceptance or courtesy; acknowledgment: respect for a suspect's right to counsel; to show respect for the flag; respect for the elderly. |
| 5. | the condition of being esteemed or honored: to be held in respect. |
How many people feel like they deserve respect and don't necessarily understand it is a privilege to have? I didn't really think about it until I read this definition.
I have been having this struggle lately in understanding how some feel they can demand my respect while failing to reciprocate it.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
The Guys' Rules
1. Men ARE not mind readers.
1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.
1. Sunday sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be.
1. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way.
1. Crying is blackmail.
1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it!
1. "Yes" and "No" are perfectly Acceptable answers to almost every question.
1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.
1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem . See a doctor.
1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 Days.
1. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't Expect us to act like soap opera guys.
1. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us.
1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one .
1. You can either ask us to do something or tell us how you want it done. Not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.
1. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials.
1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.
1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings. Peach, for example, is a fruit, not a color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.
1. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that.
1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," we will act like nothing is wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.
1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, expect an answer you don't want to hear.
1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine... Really .
1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball, the shotgun formation, or golf.
1. You have enough clothes.
1. You have too many shoes.
1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!
1. Thank you for reading this. Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight; but did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.
1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.
1. Sunday sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be.
1. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way.
1. Crying is blackmail.
1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it!
1. "Yes" and "No" are perfectly Acceptable answers to almost every question.
1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.
1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem . See a doctor.
1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 Days.
1. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't Expect us to act like soap opera guys.
1. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us.
1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one .
1. You can either ask us to do something or tell us how you want it done. Not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.
1. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials.
1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.
1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings. Peach, for example, is a fruit, not a color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.
1. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that.
1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," we will act like nothing is wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.
1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, expect an answer you don't want to hear.
1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine... Really .
1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball, the shotgun formation, or golf.
1. You have enough clothes.
1. You have too many shoes.
1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!
1. Thank you for reading this. Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight; but did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.
Monday, February 05, 2007
More Grey's inspiration for the week
As surgeons we will in a world of worst-case scenarios. We cut ourselves off from best-case scenarios because many times, the best doesn’t happen. Then something extraordinary occurs. And suddenly, best-case scenarios seem possible. And every-now-and-then, something amazing happens, and against our better judgment we start to have hope...
As doctors, we’re trained to give our patients just the facts. But what our patients really want to know is, will the pain ever go away? Will I feel better? Am I cured? What our patients really want to know is, is there hope? But inevitably there are times when you find yourself in the worst-case scenario...
When the patient’s body has betrayed them, and all the science we have to offer has failed them, when the worst-case scenario has come true, clinging to hope is all we’ve got left.
As doctors, we’re trained to give our patients just the facts. But what our patients really want to know is, will the pain ever go away? Will I feel better? Am I cured? What our patients really want to know is, is there hope? But inevitably there are times when you find yourself in the worst-case scenario...
When the patient’s body has betrayed them, and all the science we have to offer has failed them, when the worst-case scenario has come true, clinging to hope is all we’ve got left.
Grey's inspiration for the week (returns)
…We think we’re going to be great and we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren’t met… But sometimes our expectations sell us short… Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected…
How many times have you felt robbed by your expectations? When that person that said they would always be there, wasn't? When you worked so hard to get your ducks in a row to get that job, then didn't?
I talk frequently with a friend about expectations and how much we dislike them. Personally, I try not to have too many because it gives me a chance to more objectively evaluate the situation.
For example, think about the last time you went out on a blind date or someone you had never seen? All the hype, the talk, and then you see them in real life. What were you thinking? How did the rest of the evening turn out if it wasn't what you "expected"?
Too, I like not having many expectations because I like the surprises of life. Many times the unexpected will give you something better in the long run. It allows you to make the best of any situation.
...You’ve got to wonder why we cling to our expectations... Because the expected is just what keeps us steady, standing, still… The expected is just the beginning… The unexpected is what changes our lives.
How many times have you felt robbed by your expectations? When that person that said they would always be there, wasn't? When you worked so hard to get your ducks in a row to get that job, then didn't?
I talk frequently with a friend about expectations and how much we dislike them. Personally, I try not to have too many because it gives me a chance to more objectively evaluate the situation.
For example, think about the last time you went out on a blind date or someone you had never seen? All the hype, the talk, and then you see them in real life. What were you thinking? How did the rest of the evening turn out if it wasn't what you "expected"?
Too, I like not having many expectations because I like the surprises of life. Many times the unexpected will give you something better in the long run. It allows you to make the best of any situation.
...You’ve got to wonder why we cling to our expectations... Because the expected is just what keeps us steady, standing, still… The expected is just the beginning… The unexpected is what changes our lives.
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