Estoy una Enamorada Perdida

I had an interesting conversation yesterday with a friend from the mission. She makes me laugh. V would write me in the mission and send me some fun photos. She asked how we were doing and I think if I could have broken down and cried in her arms I would have. I miss him so much.

The other night I dremt he came back, we talked and everything was okay. It all felt so real and I wanted it to be. Sometimes it feels like he is so close, but in reality he is far away.

I messaged him today and he seemed so cold. He hardly would converse with me at all. It breaks my heart and I only long to be closer to him. That is the strange part: He is so cold and it only makes me want to draw closer... Imaginete...

Lately I have also been thinking about J. I think it would be fun, but I don't know what he thinks. Who knows... He knows how to come into contact with my number if he wants to.

Platey is getting screwed by The Signpost. It is the classic case of management hates employee, does everything possible to get employee fired. I hope Platey fights, I want to see him win. Top tier management is nothing to be desired let me asure you. He has a strong case if he persues it.

Last night was beautiful. I went snowshoeing at the Bird Refuge near West Point. It was a cold rainy night with fog. The sky had been overcast all day. I debated driving down the dirt road for fear of getting stuck. But as I turned the corner I realized others had been down the road and paved me a good path.

As I drove down the road I saw another truck. It was a white Ford and there was a man sitting in it. I don't know if he was taking in the scenery or what. The interesting thing was that I felt no fear or threat. I got out of my car, put my showshoes on and went down the trail.

At one point when I was taking pictures, I turned around and he was out of his truck throwing snowballs. I just continued walking and figured if I was ment to die in a field, there I would be. But I still felt no fear.