I had this opportunity to go see Switchfoot in concert last night at Park City. Not only one of my favorite cities in the entire world, but it was free. I almost went and then this boy talked me into not going and into going to the Jazz game. He had completely ticked me off the night before and was totally on the alter of forgiveness so I would go to the game. I told him I would rather go to Switchfoot with some other people because there I would not be insulted. He practically begged me and I felt bad because I had already committed to going.The game was good. But the one of the reasons I went ended up being smeared into my face. This other girl was all over him and he was eating it up. He knows I am interested and she knows as well. EW! Girls are so evil. I was angered almost to the point of tears... WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! Boys are stupid and probably one of the last things I need right now.
I was talking with Platey and it was probably one of the only things that kept me calm at that point. He is such a good friend. I am really greatful for him.
We all went to Beto's after the game, which was yummy as always. I was kind-of avoiding B and I think he realized I was not happy. When we dropped everyone off he came over to my house and told me how sorry he was. I told him it hurt and that I was not going to fight for something that I was going to have to compete for. In the process I explained how much I liked him and he told me the feelings were mutual.
The whole thing was weird for me because I normally have these 'honest' conversations over the phone or through IM (lame I know). It was the most honest face-to-face conversation I have had with a guy about this kind of stuff. Strangely, it felt really good to just be able to talk about things.
We talked for an hour and he seemed like the whole world was on his shoulders. I just listened while he talked and let out all his frustrations. He said he wants to see me more. We will see. I just have to remember boys are evil and should be trusted one small step at a time.
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it's quite disconcerting to feel an element of competition in dating. I got to the point where i would just automatically resign at the sight of it, but I guess deep down there isn't anything good about that. Some people want to be fought over a little, some people have that need. I'm not saying that B does, but maybe. Chances are the guy doesn't know what he wants. I've been in those situations and probably would have reacted much like he did if I was undecided about girls. Having more than one girl show interest is weird for a guy because normally we do anything just to get ONE girl to pay some attention, let alone two at a time. Patience is the key here, but you have to count the cost and see if it's worth the stress.
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