Here in about 1 week there will be some major changes in my life. I will be a home owner and out on my own. It's exciting and a little nervous at the same time.
While I have this exciting change in my life, I feel like there is a void. I want someone to share it with and some of the other people I most want to share it with don't seem too interested.
Being closer to work and being less involved in extras and church (for the moment) will give me time to do some things I have neglected. Maybe there I will fill the void I am feeling.
Leaving something I have known for 2.5 years will also be a new adventure. I think some people thought I would stay for a while, and maybe I did too. But in seeking to fill the void, I am moving. I need some new scenery and challenges.
I feel that sometimes my convictions have separated me and even driven apart some of the friendships I had (not that I am a perfect Saint by any means). I am not sure that I will ever fully fit it in in this life. And that's OK because my journey will present me with new opportunities.
Perhaps I will be in search for a while. Perhaps it will take me closer (if even by steps) to the one thing that can fill that void.
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I remember when I moved out on my own for good. There's the excitement of having your own place. Organizing things the way you want them. Deciding what to make to eat everyday. But the one thing that made me really think about it was, I couldn't go back home! Not that I wanted too! Just thinking about that was kind of weird. I think the one thing that makes the difference is paying for something you can have as long as you want it. No one can tell you to go. And once you pay it off it's your's! Once you get settled, your friends, and family will come. Sometimes you want to get rid of them! Parties, family gatherings are sweet at your own place. But after being on my own now for almost 6 years, I don't even think about it as much as before. The cool thing about life is, you learn to adapt with almost anything in time.
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