Equations

I have been a delinquent blogger over the last month or so. This class on Social Dynamics of Communication Technology has been keeping me busy and has given me a lot to chew on in regards to how we "live" online.

In the middle of all of that I have been struggling with thoughts of a career change, or maybe it's a career morph... I'm still going to be a photographer/writer/dreamer, but I'm going to add another dynamic to my listing: teacher.

Over the last month I have spent quite a bit of time in the elementary schools and I have loved it. I have also been taking the CES Pre-service classes. So, we will see what comes of it all. I sent in my papers for the USOE Alternative Routes to Licensure yesterday. Thus the wait begins.

Being in the elementary class room has opened my eyes to some things I haven't seen before. Or maybe I was more humble to see where the Lord needed me to be. I always said I wasn't going to be a teacher, but as my great-grandma Standing always said: Never say never. She is probably having a good laugh about now.

In the last few months I have made some humbling changes to my life and I have learned more of what I need to be doing in order to have the Spirit in my life at all times. Making those changes have opened my mind to new levels I never thought I would reach. Growing up I always struggled with math, but in the last few weeks all these things have been coming into my mind. The Spirit has truly quickened my mind so that I can teach the things I need to teach.

I had to laugh the other night. The dream I had tells me that I am truly getting too much math in my mind. As I slept, I dreamed that there was a mathematical equation to cuddling. I don't remember it all, but I remember that I was so concerned that I was getting everything right that it just took all the fun of cuddling away. It's sick and twisted, I know. But it's quickly becoming my reality. Math, children, and who knows what.

My dating/social life has been practically zilch. If there is anything, it is ephemeral. I know there is someone out there, he is prepared and waiting. I just don't know where he is. So, I work on my patience and I tell myself that I have things to do in the meantime.

There are other things I want to write, but I have to get my class work and a 14 page paper out of the way first...