Open Door

"Opening your door to someone is in many ways a lot like opening your heart. It's not always easy. Some of us aren't used to opening up. It can hurt. But, we do what we can for our guests. We try to be hospitable giving them whatever they desire. Sometimes all you can do is help them feel better while they wait to return home. And soon enough the guest is gone, leaving us to move the couch, do the laundry, go back to our lives as usual. If that's possible."

Tonight I had some people over for Family Home Evening and it was so fun to have people over. Sometimes I am thankful I can come home to a quiet house, but there are days when I love just opening my door to others and making them feel at home in my house.

This whole open heart thing is new for me, but I am thankful for the people who let me open my door to them. I am a person who will do whatever I can to take care of my guests (within reason). And I know it won't always garner the results I am seeking. but I don't do it for the recognition. I do it because I know it is what God would have me do.

In speaking with a friend tonight he talked about how I always take care of others. And I have come to the conclusion that taking care of others is my way to dissipate the loneliness I feel sometimes. While I don't know if that is the best solution, it certainly makes me feel like I am of some use for a moment in time.

But like the quote, soon enough our guests are gone, and we are left to ourselves to contemplate the passings of the day. I am not sure that things ever return to 'life as usual', because I strive to learn something each day that will put me on the unusual path back to my Father in Heaven. So, if I live my life right that day, things aren't 'life as usual.'

I long to find that special someone in my life and perhaps through one of these activities to live my life out of the norm, I will find him.

"There's a little animal in all of us, and maybe that's something to celebrate. Our animal instinct is what makes us seek comfort, or maybe a pack to run with. We may feel caged. We may feel trapped. But still as humans we still can find ways to feel free. We are each others keepers. We are the guardians of our own humanity. And even though there's a beast inside all of us. What sets us apart from the animals is that we can think, feel, dream, love. And against all odds, against all instinct, we evolve."

It's about fighting to the end and it's about evolution; survival of the fittest; and seeking to be that change we seek to be in ourselves.

"Glorify who you are today, do not condemn who you were yesterday, and dream of who you can be tomorrow.”
~ Neale Donald Walsch