I have recently taken a job I don't know much about (I had a habit of doing this...) and I am a little nervous. Today I walked in on the person I am taking over for talking to another teacher about how concerned he was. Mind you this teacher he was talking to has always doubted my abilities from the time I was in high school...
There is this weird thing I have... When I walked into the room and heard his voice, I knew they we talking about me. I thought to stop and listen but my feet continued to walk. Moving forward I heard a little of the conversation which confirmed my earlier prompting and when they saw me that concreted the affirmation.
I have been a little bothered by this and I have been pondering on whether or not to say something. This is already big enough and I am not sure this is something I want to add to my plate. But as I have thought about it, I have thought to some blessings I have received and some scriptures about the little ways Satan seeks to destroy us.
On the outside I strive to appear a concrete persona, when on the inside I am really just as lost as the rest of the world. I still have yet to figure out why I apply for things I have relatively little experience in, and then get the job... Perhaps that concrete persona gives people confidence in my ability to learn and adapt quickly. Maybe I have taken DyC 130:19 a little too literally ;) "If a person gains more knowledge and intelligence in this life through diligence and obedience than another, he will have so much the advantage in the world to come" (italics added).
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