Inspiration

Today we talked about Job. What made him such a righteous man? How did he come to be so righteous? What made him so strong in the face of trials and afflictions?

I have been pulling this through my head as I have struggled with certain things in my life. With some things I am really good, but when it comes to other things I am a roller coaster ... There are some desires in my life that could have easily been fulfilled by now, but they wouldn't have come to pass in the way that would have brought lasting happiness into my life. I fill my life with stuff so I don't have to think about it. But pushing it away only seems to bring the reminder of its absence closer to my life.

This weekend I was presented with a choice. I came so close to allowing myself to make the wrong choice, which could have carried some pretty sore consequences with it. It has been eating at me and I have allowed it to lead me down a road I never wanted to be on again. But I find myself here, happy, but not.

I said something to someone this weekend that was perhaps more meant for me than it was for them: There are so many things you say you want, but you aren't doing the things necessary to obtain them ... Does it get any more clearer than that??

Many people in my life say they want to set me up. I have always pushed the idea away, but I need to stop. If the desires of my heart really are to be realized, I need to allow myself to be in places where I can potentially meet this person. And I need to be doing the things that will put me in a situation where I am ready for things to fall into place.