That moment

"You think the world stops when you stop, but it doesn’t"

There is a scene in Face/Off where Nicholas Cage (the bad guy) steps out of a car all studly. With his aviators on, his long trench coat flys with the wind and everything seems to stop in that moment as eyes turn to him.

There is a coat I purchased recently and I love it! I got out of my car the other day and I was one hot mama. It was a moment of stepping out of the car and smelling the air around you. In that moment you know you are sexy, and you work to hold on to that feeling to save in the emotional piggy bank for days when you feel pretty cruddy.

Today the world seemed to stop around me, but it wasn't step-out-of-the-car-sexy kind of stop... My emotions have been in constant flux and I don't know why there are some things that are so hard for me. I lost my composure over a decision a friend made that I had no control over. It is something I have never done in front of him and I had to walk away...

On my way home, the tears fell from my eyes as I struggled to understand the things I am supposed to learn. There is a purpose for my struggles and I am working to find the ken. When I feel like doors are opening for me, or people are letting me take a glimpse inside, they seem to inadvertently close.

In a sense, I would say that what I am looking for is some consistency in my life. The roller coaster is only fun for so long before it starts to get monotonous and give you a knot in your stomach.

So, to fix the conundrum, I refuse to wallow and wonder why people do and say the things they do. I am going to wash my car, clean it out, get sexy and go sledding. Then it will be off to a party where I hope to see someone who, for me, is eye candy... MASARAP!