Hair

An acquaintance recently did her BFA show on hair and how she uses her hair to talk about events that happen in our lives. In reality, don't we all?

I can totally identify with her perspective. When I dated Trevor, he always told me how he liked long hair. So I let it grow. Then he was gone.

So I cut it.

I let go of something that for too long meant so much to me. It was my way of saying goodbye. It was my way of letting go.

Then I started to date Jonathan. Things hit off so well and I saw that maybe my life was heading toward eternal progression.

Nope.

But I still let it grow.

Something inside of me hoped for something more and that perhaps there was something still on the horizon. I found someone I thought would be perfect. Not that one either. School was beginning to start and with my prospects waning into Fall ...

I cut my hair again.

And I colored it a sassy brown red.

Some say the color of my hair for the last year matches my personality. I have tried to become the image of something I am not. Something God didn't intend me to be.

Another boy. Another hope. Once again crushed and drug through Hell. I continued to let my hair grow. Maybe things would be different. But I still colored it.


This time dark brown with red.


Maybe if I could become like her, he would see that I am hands down the choice. Just maybe. Maybe if I were more spontaneous. Just maybe if I were more friendly. But the mask was more than me and something spoke softly to me one night:


"There are some things you are not. But there are so many more wonderful things you are. Stop trying to be something / someone you aren't."


I have been running.

But I'm done running now and I am ready to be me. So, in two weeks I have an appointment. I told my Aunt I want to start going back to my natural hair color. She looked at me like I was crazy, but said okay.

And I like my hair short.

Always have.

So, these are my thoughts and I would be interested to know what you think. Many of the people who have come into my life over the past few years don't know what I look like with my natural color. They only have seen it in pictures.